Written by Jack:

 

A lot of people look at cross dressing as harmless.  It is fun.  It doesn’t hurt them.  As Christians we can see that it is disordered and spiritually it can separate us from God.  But how about physical damage?  It really can’t be harmful to you, can it?   Dr. Trish Leigh, a neurologist with an online presence and private practice that focuses on porn addiction, talks in detail about how porn causes physical damage to your brain.  Basically, when you engage in artificial highly stimulating sexual activities it causes your brain to operate at a speed that is too fast (think about keeping the TAC in your car in the red).  Once your brain is operating at this “too fast” rate it tries to slow down and pulls you into a “too slow” rate.  This causes a pendulum effect.  Not only does it prevent your brain from operating at the optimum level, it can cause physical damage over time.  One of Dr Trish’s strategies is to help people train their brain to increase the calm state.   You can actually monitor the amount of “calm” in your brain with an App and some simple tech.  I have been doing this for about a year.  The following are my observations based on personal experiences.  I am a numbers guy, so putting specific numbers to actions shows me the impact a lot more than just saying this is bad.  Don’t worry about what the numbers mean, just look at the change.

I am pretty consistent and try to do some brain training every day at the same time each day.  When I am 60 to 90 days free of all addictive behaviors, my brain is consistently around 55% calm.  If I have a good day, it will be around 65% and on a stressful day around 45%.  I find this to be a very stable range.   I have never been into porn, my addictive behaviors deal with cross dressing and cross-dressing chat (I have seen similar impacts with a variety of types of chat from things that are very explicit to things that are just talking about cross dressing).  When I have been engaging in these addictive behaviors, I have noticed at first my level of calm doesn’t change.  Sometimes it will even go up by 5 or 10 percent.  Within 2 or 3 days, my calm will usually drop into the low 30’’s or mid-20’s.  Within a week I will usually be into the teens.  On two occasions, I have had my level of calm drop all the way to 0%.   If I am involved in daily use, I have noticed when I am able to walk away, it takes at least a week for me to see any improvement in my level of calm.  I have seen my calm stuck in the teens for two weeks on several occasions.   The scariest thing to me is even if I just have a one-time slip, I will usually see my calm drop into the teens for several days.  It rebounds a lot quicker than if I fall back into daily use but it usually stagnates in the 30’s and then goes into the 40’s.   It takes about a month for my mind to get back on track.

This is just my personal observations but I feel the type of brain impacts that Dr. Trish talks about with porn can be applied to other types of sexually stimulating activity.   When you lose the calm in your brain it is harder to focus and concentrate.   I notice it, also, has a negative impact on how I deal with other people.  My opinion is that anything that gets a person unnaturally revved up sexually will have some type of negative impact on brain function.   Some may argue that cross dressing is not going to affect your brain like porn.  There are several factors that make cross dressing highly arousing to the brain.  The sexuality, the fact it is in some ways a social taboo, and the fear of getting caught or exposed.  My personal observations are that cross dressing and its related activities (no one just dresses, it leads us all somewhere) affects the brain in a similar manner to porn.

One of the reasons we usually underestimate the negative effects of cross dressing is that we focus on the dressing part.  How can just putting on a dress be a problem?  This comment is one that shows a lack of understanding of the true nature of cross dressing.  It tries to equate it to me putting on a shirt and going to work.   The two activities are as dissimilar as me walking to my mailbox and running a marathon.  I may be engaged in forward movement in both but the similarities end quickly.  Every time I have crossed dressed, I have thought and planned out what I would do ahead of time.  This may include shopping, going somewhere to do it, or looking for the right time.  My mind is impacted before I even touch an article of clothing.  Once I do it, I have to do something.  It could be as simple as looking in the mirror or as complex as going out dressed.  Even after I have done it, the event lingers in my mind for a long time.  It will always be there if I want to reach out and grab it.  Finally, I can participate in other activities (chat, erotica, memes, etc.) where I am not physically dressed but I am mentally dressed in my mind.  Cross dressing has its own mystique that can consume and destroy a person’s mind.  The bottom line is cross dressing is not just clothes.  It is an alternate reality that is built in my mind that will damage and destroy me if I embrace it.

Jack

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