We need to do whatever it takes to quit crossdressing and fight temptation. Here is a practical tip that may help you. I did a writing exercise once that was helpful to me. A television show reminded me of how kids used to do the discipline activity of writing something like “I will not hit my sister” 100 times on a piece of paper. Such an activity I think is helpful because it really ingrains the idea in your head.

When I first did this writing exercise it was after I looked at a crossdressing website I should not have visited. I repented and enjoyed God’s forgiveness and moved on. But I did not want it to happen again, so I did this writing activity to help me be more vigilant when it comes to the internet and crossdressing. Especially I wanted to be more vigilant around google and not searching for things that might seem harmless, but will lead me down a wrong path. I thought writing this phrase out – “I will not google that” 100 times would be helpful for ingraining that idea in my head. I’m not sure if I reached 100 times, but it turned into a wonderful devotional activity in the process, and a good reminder of why I don’t want to fall back into crossdressing or looking at crossdressing websites. I highly recommend this writing activity. Below is a sample section from my writing.

I will not google that.
I will not google that.
I will not google that.
I will not google that cd filth.
I will not google that cd rubbish.
I will not google that stupid fiction.
I will not google those perverted stories.
I will not google those flickr pictures.
I will not google that art.
I will not google story filth.
I will not google that perverted sin.
I will not google this toxic stuff to my soul.
I will not google pictures of women celebrities.
I will not google pictures of women.
I will not google pictures of men.
I will not google pictures of clothes.
I will not google seemingly harmless phrases.
I will not google any cd fiction which is all trash.
I will not google anything without a purpose.
I will not google trying to find sinful things to fill my mind.
I will not google in an addictive state ruining my life.
I will not google and waste all the time in my life.
I will not google that.
I will not google that.
I will not google that.
I will not google anything about CD.
I will not google CD filth.
I will not google CD drawings.
I will not google CD photos.
I will not google when I am home alone.
I will not google dresses that were not made for me.
I will not google that which will rot my soul.
I will not google that which will put me in bondage.
I will not google that which will make me feel pain.
I will not google that which will make me feel regret.
I will not google that which will make me want to vomit later.
I will not google that which will make me disappoint my God.
I will not google that which will make me add to the sins Christ had to bear.
I will not google that which will make me lose a battle.
I will not google that which will make me break my victory streak.
I will not google that which will disappoint my accountability partner.
I will not google that which will disappoint my prayer group.
I will not google that which will fill my mind with horrid images.
I will not google that which will confuse my body’s sexuality.
I will not google that which will bring rot to my soul.
I will not google that which will pull me farther away from God.
I will not google that which will pull me farther away from my wife.
I will not google that which will make me hear God’s voice less well.
I will not google that.
I will not google that.
I will not google that.
I will not google that.
I will not google that.
I will not google that.
I will not google that evil filth.
I will not google that stuff I Hate.
I will not google that stuff that filled my life with bondage for so many years.
I will not google that and become a slave.
I will not google that and go back to slavery.
I will not google that and confuse my sexuality.
I will not google that and read about such nasty things.
I will not google that and waste all of my time.
I will not google that and waste all my time looking for wholesome CD stories because there aren’t any.
I will not google that.
I will not google that.
I will not google that no matter what.
I will not google that no matter how much it entices me.
I will not google that no matter if I am alone and can delete my history.
I will not google that no matter how much my body wants it.
I will not google that just because I want sexual pleasure.
I will not google that because I want to masturbate.
I will not google that.
I will not google that.
I will not google beautiful women instead of desiring my wife.
I will not google women to lust after which is adultery.
I will not google any women to lust at which is adultery.
I will not google any people to lust at which is adultery.
I will not google pictures of CD men to lust at which is homosexuality.
I will not google pictures of any people to lust at which is messed up.
I will not google any kind of crossdressing fiction because its all so nasty and wrong.
I will not google that.
I will not google that.
I will not google that.
I will not google that.
I will not google any of that rubbish.
I will not google that which I know God does not want me to.
I will not google that because I know that is what is best for me.
I will not google that because I know that God’s will is best.
I will not google that because when I don’t google that I am always happiest.
I will not google that because when I don’t, I am free.
I will not google that because I know God gives me the strength not to.
I will not google that you stupid devil.
I will not google that because I am going to be victorious.
I will not google that.
I will not google that because I am the Lord’s child.
I will not google that because I have the Holy Spirit living in me.
I will not google that because God loves me.
I will not google that because I am a man of God.
I will not google that because I am a leader of God’s people.
I will not google that because I have the promise of eternal life.
I will not google that because my joy is full because of God’s salvation.
I will not google that because God is my all in all and all that I need.
I will not google that because God is my joy and my treasure.
I will not google that because Jesus is coming back again to make me new and change my desires.
I will not google that because God is with me, always.

I will not google that. I am free.

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