Questions and Comments?

This page is where you can give me your general comments about this ministry or ask me specific questions. You can also suggest topics for me to write about or suggest improvements to this website. Just comment below. Concerning questions, I reserve the right to say “I don’t know!” If you need to contact me privately, see my “About Me” page.

If you comment below asking for prayer, I promise to pray for you, and others in this community will pray for you as well.


  1. LB

    Why is this an unsecured site?

    • Paul Wheeler

      Can you recommend any counselors in Los Angeles.

      • Barnabas

        Paul, thank you for the question. Unfortunately I don’t know any to recommend. My best recommendations are to reach out to one of these organizations who can either counsel you from a distance or they would have the proper connections to help you locate someone in LA:

        These are taken from my links page under ministries, please check there for more of them, and for the links:

        *Harvest USA – Christian organization that gives discipleship and counseling assistance to help people find hope in Jesus Christ when struggling with sexual brokenness of any kind, including transgenderism.
        *Prodigal Ministries – Christian organization that seeks to help people with sexual addiction or transgender issues.
        *Celebrate Recovery – Excellent recovery organization similar to 12 step programs, but focused on Jesus. Excellent curriculum for fighting addiction.

  2. Linda

    Do you have information on parents dealing with young adult Crossdressing.

    • Temptedsinner

      This may be a good place to look.
      It is one of the many links that Barnabas has listed in the resources.

  3. Barnabas

    Linda, I haven’t written a lot on that, but this post should be a helpful start to you:

    Then if you look at my links page,
    There are a lot of links and articles there that will guide you on that issue.

    Here is one article that is part of a series of 4 articles –

    • Linda brown

      Thank Barnabas I will read those links. We are looking for a rehab (not in Texas Oklahoma or New Mexico) for our son. He needs a mental and drug addition rehab. Any suggestions on who to talk to that would be a Christian facility too? Thank you for your assistance

      • Barnabas

        Linda, I’m sorry, I don’t have a good idea of how to answer that question. I’m not familiar with drug and addiction rehab centers. Just try to do some internet searching, but you can look through the organizations on my links page and see if they have links to addiction centers on their pages. You could also try contacting some of them to see if they can link you to a center.

  4. Anonymouswife

    Wondering about Thorin? And looks like an excellent site to continue my support as a struggling wife. Thank you!

  5. K P

    I am a cross dresser. I am in my late fifties and have cross dressed all of my life with memories going as far back as my early childhood. The thrill of pretending to be something I’m not, accompanied by the sensation from the feel of the clothes, and more recently the application of makeup, gave me a high I wished would never have to end. Stepping forward to today, I recently came out to my wife, of almost thirty years, about my cross dressing. Through a chain of events, self caused by my own carelessness, I decided to confess my need to cross dress to her. The fear that gripped me for all those years of getting caught was transferred to a new fear of what would happen next. To my surprise All my years of secretes, lies and deception were met head on by my wife’s enduring love, caring heart and her deep devotion to Jesus Christ. There was also a sickness in her stomach from the hurt that went along with this shocking admission, accompanied by several sleepless nights for both of us. The guilt, in my heart was real, and is still, that I caused her this hurt and I didn’t know how to explain this away or convince her things are going to be okay. At first she didn’t want to talk to me about it, as I tried to get her to read articles as they related to my cross dressing, she just let me know she was praying for me and this addiction. Truth is, I never even thought in terms that my cross dressing was an addiction. I have never been a smoker or drinker and have never used drugs in a leisurely manner, so the thought of being addicted to something never crossed my mind until now. Meanwhile, over the last month my cross dressing desire, instead of cooling off to allow time to heal, increased. I wanted to take it further and step out to a couple of local cross dresser events in my area. I had never been outside the home and in my mind this seemed like the logical next step if she wasn’t willing to talk about my need verbally. I even had other cross dressers applauding my determination to join them. Thinking her silence was my excuse to believe she was acceptable too it on a “Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell” basis, I continued to make the plans of how I was going to leave my sheltered country neighborhood in stealth mode and join other’s who thought like me. What I didn’t realize, is that my praying and deeply concerned wife was reading. She was reading the Bible and saying prayers from a book called The Power of a Praying Wife, by Stormie Omartian. She was searching the web looking for Christian resources that offered support on the topic of cross dressing and transgender issues. She brought me an article from Focus On The Family and asked me to please read it. I did read it and over the last week I have searched out other resources on line that discussed the Christen view on this topic, and that search is what eventually lead me to this site. I have a lot of reading to do still, I find the articles to have a parallel relation to my own struggles. The story described by Barnabas of his cross dressing and how it affected his life is very similar to my story. The part of the story where he conquers his addiction through God’s help, is the story I want to be mine, as well. I think about if I never had gotten careless and then never had felt the need to tell my wife about my cross dressing before she found out through others, things would be just moving along in the same order as before with Me Cross Dressing, Me Lying, Me being Deceitful, Me not looking for help. My wife and I started attending, for the first time in years, a community Christian church. Its so strange to be sitting there and feeling that the Minister is directing his sermon of God’s love and understanding and on how Time is our greatest asset, and time is also the one thing we don’t have enough of, towards my life and getting things right with God. Thank You, Barnabas. This site has been a blessing to find, and I truly hope, and I need to pray, that it helps me on a road to recovery from my addiction and hopefully to salvation. I thank God for his love, and for love I have from my beautiful wife, with them working together, I feel some hope. KP

    • Barnabas

      KP, thank you so much for the comment and for sharing your story. I’m happy to hear that you want to follow my example and be free from addiction to crossdressing. It’s not necessarily easy to give it up, but like other addictions, it is totally worth any effort that you put in to give it up. It is wonderful to live a life free of it. I will pray for you right now.

      If you are serious about wanting to give it up, I welcome you to join our prayer group:

      Keep reading my posts and commenting if you have time

  6. Dee

    I am so grateful for being led to this site. It has brought my husband and I information, resources and hope we desperately need right now.

  7. Anakin

    Is there anyone I can talk too. I have never crossdressed but I have the urge to do so.

    • Barnabas

      I emailed you Anakin

  8. W

    Have struggled with crossdressing for many years.

    It started when I was fairly young when I had gotten my clothes very dirty and had to stay overnight with a female relative. It wasn’t planned, so I didn’t have any other clothes to wear. I took a bath and she started my clothes soaking. While she had my clothes in the laundry, she found me something to wear for the rest of the evening and to bed. She had no boy clothes for me, so when I got to the bedroom, I saw that the clothes she had laid out for me to wear were a pair of panties and a nightgown. I hadn’t tried on girl’s clothing before, but I put them on. It felt strange being dressed like a girl, but she acted like it was no big deal. The fabrics were so different to what I was used to wearing. The panties were stretchy nylon that fit me really well and the gown was a silky material. They felt nice and I liked wearing them better than my normal boy clothes. The next morning, my clothes weren’t ready yet, so I had to wear the panties and nightgown a bit longer. While waiting on my clothes, I went back to the bedroom I had slept in and started looking through the closet and drawers in the room and found a lot more girl’s clothing including skirts, dresses, shoes, and other things. I had a strange urge to try those girl’s clothes on. I took off the nightgown and put on a bra. I looked at myself in the mirror on the closet door and stuffed the bra with some socks and put on some girl’s nylon socks and started trying on clothes. I tried on skirts and tops and found some shoes that fit. I took that outfit off and tried on some dresses. I must have lost track of time, because it didn’t seem like it was very long before she came into the room with my clothes. I felt like I had been caught doing something I shouldn’t have been doing, but again she acted like it was nothing and told me I looked very pretty. I didn’t hear many positive things as a child and had low self-esteem, so that made me feel good. She told me my clothes were ready, so I could change into them, or I could play in the girl’s clothes as long and I didn’t get them dirty. I should have stopped right then, but I liked the way those girl’s clothes felt and feeling pretty, so I kept wearing girl’s clothes and enjoyed spinning around to watch the skirt flare out. I stayed dressed as a girl all day and didn’t put on my own clothes until she told me my mom was coming to pick me up. I felt sad having to dress in my own clothes, but did. I left hoping I’d be able to stay overnight with her again.

    I would never blame her for my sins, but it might have helped if she had discouraged my dressing instead of allowing me to do it and affirming it.

    Back home, I sneaking in my sister’s room and looking at her clothes. She had some of the same type of nylon panties and socks I had worn before, so I borrowed some. I wearing her panties and socks, and she had some other clothes that fit me, so I began secretly wearing her skirts and dresses. Our feet were similar in size, so I practiced walking in heels. I liked dressing like a girl but also felt ashamed about doing it and sneaking around and was always worried about getting caught. I didn’t have a lot of friends and the friends that I had were girls. I remember having thoughts that life would have been easier for me if I was a girl. I seemed to feel better about myself when I was wearing girl’s clothing. I don’t know if my sister suspected anything or knew what I was secretly wearing her clothes, but she surprised me one day by asking me to play dress up with her. I tried to act like I wasn’t really interested in doing it, but finally agreed like she had talked me into it, but it was something I didn’t like. She kept giving me outfits to try on and some wigs I wasn’t aware my mom had that were located. She put makeup on me and when I was all dolled up, she told me how pretty I looked. When mom got home, she introduced me as her friend and gave a girl’s name. My mom only smiled and said he looks cute.

    When I did stay with the female relative again, I had a change of clothes and clothes to wear to bed, but she left that same nightgown I had worn before on the bed. Instead of wearing the clothes I brought, I wore that nightgown again and panties to wear with it.

    My sister got older and stopped wanting to play dress up with me, but I continued dressing alone in secret and would save clothes and shoes that she didn’t want and added them to my secret pile of girl’s clothing. Dressing like a girl became a game and I was dumb and didn’t think I would get caught and started taking risks including wearing my sister’s panties full time. It didn’t last long because my mom, while taking care of the laundry, noticed that my sister was using a lot more panties than she should have been and an almost empty drawer and I didn’t have any underwear in the laundry, but an almost full drawer of underwear. My mom looked at me, and to confirm her suspicions, she had me pull down my shorts in front of her and pull my shirt up. She saw I was wearing my sister’s panties. I was so embarrassed and ashamed. I looked at my sister. My sister didn’t seem mad, but was more in shock as she stared at me wearing her panties like she didn’t believe what she was seeing was really happening. I was severely punished in front of my sister and told never to wear her panties again.

    I lived in fear that my sister would tell everyone her brother had been wearing her panties, but she didn’t. She and my mom acted like it never happened. I tried to stop wearing girl’s clothes, but felt a lingering urge to dress as a girl all the time. I saved some more clothes she was throwing out and found some pairs of panties with small rips in them. I gave into the urge and began wearing panties again, but limiting it to only those clothes she wouldn’t miss and not the ones in her drawer or closet. I foolishly felt I was in total control and could stop at anytime.

    Dressing up was no longer the innocent game and took a darker turn with the hormones of puberty. Instead of dressing up for fun, dressing up began with admiring the illusion of the pretty girl in the mirror I could turn into, but ended with masturbation. The pleasure didn’t last long and I felt sick and ashamed and dirty for doing that. I would quickly remove my makeup and undress out of my female clothing and worry about getting caught. A few times, I didn’t have time to shower and was worried my mom or sister would smell the lady’s perfume or girl’s deodorant I would wear. I tried to fight the urge to dress and was sometimes successful, but sometimes it was almost as if I had no control like I was possessed and what happened after I started dressing was a blur until I had finished. I had very nasty sexual thoughts while dressed as a girl that were thoughts I never had while dressed as a boy. Some of those nasty thoughts were about me being both the girl who was getting taken against her will as well as her rapist, and I would use my sister’s tampons on myself while masturbating to live out those filthy thoughts.

    It got worse after that with even nastier thoughts and actions that I shamefully was involved in. I didn’t feel like I could talk to anyone about what I was doing, because it was so nasty, and I didn’t fully understand why I was doing it myself. I knew I was sickened by what I was doing and what I had become. I threw out all of the female clothing I had and tried to stop.

    I was able to stop for several months, but the urge to dress never faded and only seem to get stronger along with thinking about shaving my legs. I fought those urges, and even had them my legs all soaped up a few times with a women’s razor in my hand, but stopped myself. My sister had gotten a few bottles of hair removing lotion to use instead of shaving, and I got a strange urge to have bare legs and quickly put it on my legs and under my arms one night on impulse. I left it on for several minutes, but then worried about the consequences of what I was doing to myself and filled the bathtub. By the time I had rinsed it off, it was too late and my hair was gone. If I would have used a razor, I could have stopped myself. I felt sick at what I had done, but it was done. Seeing and feeling my smooth bare feminine looking legs, I wondered what they would look like in a skirt and dress, and I was soon was completely dressed in my sister’s clothes. It ended like it always had before with me feeling ashamed and nasty. I had to wear long pants for a long time, so no one would see my bare legs, but using Halloween as cover, I went out dressed as a girl showing off my legs to people in an area I didn’t go to. Where I lived, I worried about getting caught again before my hair grew back, but there for some reason didn’t bother me as much. My sister saw me that night coming back home and told me great costume. I felt sick she had seen me dressed like that, but I didn’t stop. I continued crossdressing and got more female clothing and used her hair removing lotion again and shaved a few times.

    I purged all of my female clothing again and stopped crossdressing for a long time, but again the temptation was always there. And though it didn’t last, I felt better about myself when I was dressed in female clothes.

    The cycle repeated many times. Sometimes, I was able to limit myself to only wearing panties and girl’s socks under my normal clothes, but other times the urge wouldn’t go away until I had fully dressed up. Sometimes I would get other thoughts about starting on hormones to alert my body to look more like a woman, but I have been able to resist those so far and they have passed, but have returned several times.

    I hadn’t used illegal drugs, but I felt like an addict, and I still felt like it was something I couldn’t talk to anyone about. If I felt overwhelmed or depressed, I would escape into a childish game of crossdressing. I needed to grow up. The thought still comes to me sometimes that life would have been better for me if I was a girl instead, but I tell myself it would have been better if I would have never started crossdressing in the first place. I never was in control of the addiction and instead had let it control me.

    I searched for help to stop crossdressing, but most sites only help start or continue crossdressing.

    I was glad to find your site and its encouragement. I hope to be able to fully stop one day and no longer have any urges whatsoever. It seems like this crossdressing addiction is a mental issue, but with the nasty thoughts it has brought that I don’t think I could ever thought up myself, is a demonic attack as well.

  9. George Howe

    I find it odd that your site is called “Healing From Crossdressing.” I have been trying on women’s clothes since I was 11 years old and no one heaped more shame, more hate, and more contempt upon me than so-called “Christian” groups that are supposed to show the love of Christ. I find it to be an irony that you focus on something so petty as someone trying on clothes when there are worse problems in the world inflicted on it by the church and Christians, and so-called “Christian” politicians that are clearly not. Your priorities are messed up.

    • Barnabas

      George, thank you for your comment. I’m glad you took time to comment so that we could dialogue and so you can hopefully better understand this website. While you may not have seen any problem with crossdressing yourself, surely if you take some time to google and read crossdressing forums, or read crossdressing blogs, you will see that many have found crossdressing to be an unwanted addiction that consumes their lives, and you will see that many have lost marriages or jobs over it. Even sites the encourage crossdressing like have numerous threads in which crossdressers talk about this.

      I built this website first and foremost to help myself but also to help others who also wanted to give up crossdressing. I have no desire to add shame to anyone or hate anyone. I have no desire to make crossdressing illegal. I have no desire to spread hate or intolerance. I’m here to give assistance to those who out of their own freewill do not want to crossdress anymore but have difficulty stopping. If you think I’m promoting hate or shame, then you have to take a little more time to read what I’ve actually wrote on this website. That’s not my goal at all. I’m sorry for what you have experienced from Christian groups. Christians, like all people, do not live up to God’s standards and do not love God and other people as fully and completely as we should. I know I can do better myself. That’s why I’m grateful for the grace God has shown to me in Jesus Christ.

      I’d encourage you to read one of my posts to start with. This one is written from a general perspective (not getting into my Christian faith), and you may begin to understand why some people think crossdressing brings confusion in their identity rather than wholeness.

  10. George Howe

    Your very name as “healing” is a contradiction. As a crossdresser, I don’t view it as an addiction. I hold a degree in psychology, and have a background in addictions therapy, and crossdressing is not that. And “gender dysphoria” as it has been classified by the DSM-IV has been taken way out of context by religious communities. Sometimes, I wear panties. Sometimes, I wear a skirt. Sometimes I wear pants. It doesn’t matter. What matters is how I love God, my neighbors, and the world around me. This legalistic bs you’re obsessed with is taking all the beauty out of life, and turning you into a fanatic that is no different the the nuts the crashed planes into buildings on 9/11. All because of what some dude decided to wear. And you don’t use your real name. Spineless.

    • Barnabas

      George, it’s easy to come here and cast judgment without really reading what I’ve written. If you are so sure I’m wrong, instead of insulting me, why don’t you read what I’ve written and engage with it and point out where I’m wrong? For all the love you are espousing, you don’t speak in a very loving way, accusing me of being like terrorists because I’m desiring to help people who actually want my help. One of the problems in the world today is that “love” is defined very differently by different people. I think using your free time to insult people you don’t know, without being willing to listen and dialogue in the slightest, calling them fanatics without actually knowing what they believe, and calling what they believe BS without actually having read it, is a strange way to think about loving your neighbor.

  11. George Howe

    I have read much of what you have written (under an assumed name, because you don’t want people to know that you harbor weird desires). You say you built this website to help yourself, and your own “healing.” It doesn’t sound like you’ve been “healed” at all. It sounds like you’re looking for a rationalization to make yourself feel better about something you’ve convinced yourself is this vile terrible thing. I assure you, it is not. It’s a joyous, lovely thing that makes you different and unique from other people. It is a gift God has given you to cherish and enjoy. And “love” is not defined by different people in different ways. You either care for people and show them compassion, respect, dignity, honor, and reverence. Your articles fail to do that. Indeed, most of the “Christian” community fails to do that while professing to “love” Christ so much. They take rights away from people they disagree with. They force people to live in disgrace because they are different, all the while forgetting the fact that God is a very creative artist.

    • NHA

      I wholeheartedly agree with the need and the call to love everyone, and believe this can only be done from a humble stance before a holy God. I think the mistake we humans often make is we try to fit God into our finite understanding. When we do this, Since we cannot rose to God’s holiness, we replace parts of his holy nature with our mortal, finite, vastly imperfect nature. Yes, we are to love all, but that doesn’t mean we call all good. We can love as one destitute beggar loving another. It’s a tough but narrow path to love without compromising God and who he is.

  12. Reformed

    Hello Barnabas, my own story , after reading recent comments I needed to affirm your most wonderful Godly ministry.                        The first thing I want to say , is All  ( and I mean ALL) True Christians Do Apologize for the so called Christians ( they are not Christians ) who show hate to crossdressers , God assures punishment to all who people who hate and one who hates is Transgressing what Jesus taught , we are commanded to hate all sin Only .I have struggled with This Very Beautiful Sin Myself   and keep resisting   because I am Guaranteed by the Gods Word  that I will Not enter the Kingdom of Heaven if I live in or harbor that sin even mentally because it’s listed as the Effeminate Sin .  BUT  BUT  I Really Don’t Know how a Non Christian can stop crossdressing or would want to because there is No Logical Reason not to cd.God is SO Pure and He dwells in Unapproachable Light .  Only Being in and Under the protection of Jesus Christ saved can I enter Heaven.
    The Bible says JESUS Will Forgive All Sin Only If one repents , turns from It and stops.Thank you,                  Reformedps . I have personally  seen the most Hate from crossdressing evangelists when a crossdresser questions himself CD ing.

      • Reformed

        Hi Barnabas , I only was speaking from my own viewpoint having read many blog comments by married guys like me if I was a non Christian . If I found out one of my non Christian friends trans dressed I would not abandon our friendship because I understand . Maybe that person might come to Jesus one day.
        It could be that many guys that cd if they didn’t , would be great spiritual saints for Christ and Satin knows this , when you read the blog comments by married guys who cd , I have found they are usually kind caring likeable people .

      • Reformed

        Hi Barnabas –  I’ve seen it “for what it is” – Familiar Spirit temptation –   When I see the Old Familiar Spirit of cd-ing femininity trying to affect me at 2:00 am , I listen to a  message from a well known Reformed or Baptist Preacher online and the he//she spirit flees from me , just like the Word says , and I expect soon  I’ll never see the he//she familiar sensuality spirit again and I Hope to lose all feminine sensuality knowledge and replace it with continuous consciousness  of the Holy Spirit . Reformed 

  13. Reformed

    Hi Barnabas,                   Wives should know there is tremendous support on the Web for being Gender Fluid , (presenting / dressing as a man and or a woman when one desires) by Very well seasoned evangelists who give friendship and camaraderie support , and are for the most part very caring nice people , so be Warned , this is growing at great speed . I think in the future we will see trans dressing men commonly everywhere because All the Media will Hugely PUSH and  Support this . The  conservative church ( which is a Tiny minority ) are truly Pilgrims on a Dangerous Journey now to the Celestial City , because the Real church has Gender Fluidity trying to infiltrate it as being normal .Thank God for your ministryReformed

  14. John Edwards

    I have struggled with this problem for over 50 years now. I can relate to the feelings of guilt, shame, embarrassment and remorse. I have made some progress recently putting all of this behind me. Many times in the past I have been able to curve this behavior for a few months only to return to it again. I have done much research over the years on what causes this and what I can do about it and everything I’ve learned seemed to indicate that it is just something that I have to live with and I’ll never be free from this problem, there is no “cure” for this I’ve learned over and over again. Yesterday, I was tempted again and I prayed for some direction. I turned on my computer and typed “How I quit crossdressing” into the search engine even though I had already spent hours unsuccessfully searching for any solution to this problem. The first link in the search results was to your website and I spent the next few hours reading the material on the site and learning finally that there is a solution to this problem, it’s not an easy one but few things in life that are worthwhile are easy, From your site I learned that others have indeed conquered this problem and I just need to be as determined as they were and believe me I am determined and committed to put this problem behind me for good. Thank you for your honesty and for sharing all of this information and for renewing my confidence that I can and will put this all behind me once and for all. May God bless you!

    • Barnabas

      John, it’s great to hear from you. Glad to know that the search engines are finding this site too! There is great hope. You can experience real change. If you want to stop, you can. You have freewill. And there are many good reasons to stop. I can’t promise you won’t still have desires to crossdress, but they can be managed. Here is a post to get you started –

      And you could think about joining our prayer group –

      • Bart

        Although I have kept my intermittent crossdressing hidden for better than fifty years, I finally made the mistake of forgetting to put up my shoes and my wife saw them. Since I am not keen on lying to my wife (I simply never told her about my “habit” when we met), I told her that I was a crossdresser. It did not go well at all and now I am finding myself in need of finding a way to stop doing it, which most sites insist is not likely and because she has furiously been looking up information about it, is convinced that I have a “fetish” that I can’t ever really quit.

        I’m telling you right up front that I am not seeking any “saving” or “divine intervention” because I am an agnostic and have generally had success in getting over prior upheavals with life by simply using my own power to make changes. Please don’t lecture me about “pride” and such – I am aware of all that as I was raised Catholic and had plenty of instruction about biblical stories and religious teachings.

        That said, giving up crossdressing permanently has not been so easy. I had not done it for several years after I met my wife seventeen years ago, but the urge returned a couple years ago and I began doing it again. I have found the act of crossdressing relaxing and somewhat validating. But I love my wife more than anything and want to save our relationship and I am pretty sure that if I continue crossdressing that may not be possible.

        So I do want to thank you for this article and not getting overly preachy about its presentation, which would have turned me off immediately. I’m going to give this method a try. I’ve already purged my female clothes and am looking forward (with some trepidation, I will admit) to some hopeful success.

      • Barnabas

        Bart, thank you for the comment. Don’t worry, even if you are not a Christian you are still very welcome here. I’d be glad to help you stop crossdressing. After such a long time of practicing crossdressing it’s going to be difficult to stop. I’m sure it’s ingrained in your system. But it’s still possible to stop. I think it would help you to have more motivation to stop than simply because your wife wants you to. Please read these two posts which should really stimulate your thinking. Feel free to not engage with the religious parts of the posts if you don’t want to. The first post is not religious at all, and was written exactly for people like you. I think you will find that many of the strategies I talk about can be used by you even if you are not a Christian.

        If you want to understand yourself better here is a good book to read –

  15. Reformed

    Hi Barnabas ,                     I have noticed in the pro crossdressing Blogs that many are coming to crossdressing in their late 50s to 60s , a time when testosterone is getting lower , and are being Greatly Mislead by the Nice crossdressing evangelist blogs ( as I was ) to pursue this activity which they have resisted most of their life ,  to be as they say “what they were meant to be” ,  a Great Lie , it’s a time in life to be aware and alert of Satan’s wiles . The Good News is I have found Jesus will Completely remove and cleanse all the CD desires completely if one Earnestly seeks Him in a Life of Prayer , all interest to CD sin goes back to the pit where it belongs .

    • Barnabas

      Thank you for the comment Reformed. I think in many cases crossdressing was always there, but was suppressed by these men and it comes out later sort of as a midlife crisis. I was just watching a youtube video on this by a non-Christian who was saying the same thing. Perhaps when sex is good in marriage in the younger years, they are more able to resist the crossdressing temptations, but then later they explode. But also, suppressing the desires, rather than acknowledging them and dealing with them, is a bad idea.

      I also find my hope in this in Jesus Christ. But I differ from you in that I don’t think he has promised to remove all sinful desire from me right now, not until he returns again and makes me new. In the meantime, the Bible teaches that we struggle and fight against sinful desires every day. For me, that includes crossdressing. I have healed a lot, so almost every day there is not a single thought of crossdressing, but periodically I have a strong temptation that I have to resist. That’s part of the Christian life, but when we rely on the Holy Spirit to help us, and focus on Christ, we can resist those temptations when they do come.

  16. Keith

    Hi Barnabas

    I was wondering if you could set up a page/blog for want of a better term “confessions”.

    I say this as at the moment I am struggling with forced cd fantasies (if I wake up in the middle of the night for instance) and bored in lock down have watched a few bondage videos on line.

    I am not seeking an area for being forgiven or pardoned or even counselled, just a safe area to blow off steam and vent our feelings. Where we can say what is on our minds without receiving banalities or condemnation.


  17. Keith

    Must admit hadn’t thought of that, sounds good.



  18. Nathan

    Here is a link to a 12 step process videos that my church uses for addiction. They have helped me in many ways.

  19. Jared

    One thing I am very scared about is having girls and them wanting to paint my nails or dress sons up like girls. Could you do an article about that? I get worried I might become weak if that happens and then go overboard.

    • Barnabas

      Jared, I don’t have too much to say about that. If you do good work in your recovery from crossdressing addiction, then when such a situation comes up, you will not only have the easy ability to say “no” to it, but you won’t want to do it either. I encourage you to keep working on your own recovery and keep reading my posts.
      If your girls ever want to dress your sons like that, you can not make a big deal out of it, but gently tell them not to do it. And if they do it, don’t flip out over it, remember that their motivations are different than yours, kids dress up just for fun, which is quite different from us doing it for sexual pleasure. I’d be uncomfortable having boys play dress up like that too, but if you overreact, it could cause more problems.


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